Day o1 - Introduce yourself
This is difficult because I’m honestly still trying to get it straight, myself. I don’t know that I’m much different from anyone else. I’m 21 years old. I am directionless in a sense but I am registered in a BA Psychology program that I will resume in the fall. I’ve switched majors three times. I live in a fantastic city and the two feelings that most often result from this are astonishment that I actually get to live in such a great place and a whole whack of loneliness because I don’t have many people to share it with. I have attachment issues and I am more dependent than I’d like to be. I’m of the opinion that the world seems more beautiful when you can share it with somebody you care about, and I don’t just mean romantically. I’ve never dated anybody, and if I’m going to be perfectly honest, I don’t think I was wired to be able to have a relationship like that. I feel really awkward a lot of the time but I like to think I’m good at concealing it. I have kissed two boys in my life. One of them is now dating one of my best friends and the other is dead.
I tend to make things sound worse than they are. I’m really not all that unhappy. In fact, I’d say my life is pretty great. It consists mainly of night shifts, weed and beaches right now, and maybe that’s what I need. I work at a fast food restaurant. I am very easy to get along with. I like people who aren’t concerned with keeping busy. I don’t think you can have too many friends. I find that a lot of my efforts to keep in touch with people are futile.
This is getting into teal deer territory so I’ll just finish off with a blob of interests:
Classic films, napping, Lord of the Rings, psychedelic experiences, live music, The Weakerthans, new friendships, unexpected messages or phone calls, the ocean, old growth, the mind, pints of whatever’s on special, disposable income, riding on the Greyhound, my family, secondhand books and CDs, Odilon Redon, Six Feet Under, Spongebob Squarepants, pretending I can write, pretending I can’t write, changing my mind, moments with no customers, people who don’t judge me for sleeping until 5 PM, solid ground, diners and bookstores.
