July 2010
12 posts
Day 15, Day 16
15 - Your Dreams
Dreaming’s a favourite pastime of mine. Lately I’ve been having trouble remembering them. Dreams can really change the mood of an entire day - they make me lonely or they make me anxious or they make me really happy. If I had to pick the most vivid dream I’ve had, I’d pick one I had when I was about five years old. It was in black and white, but yellowed...
Day 11 - Day 13
Day 11 - Your siblings
Evan, 25, philosopher. Part-time bartender. Easygoing, vegetarian pseudo-hippie, happiest in his garden or sipping on a good cocktail. Fan of comedies and documentaries and cats. Bounced back from almost failing high school to getting straight A’s all the way through his degree, proof that you can make positive change. Engaged. Half the size he used to be. We always...
Day o8 - Day 10
I have been missing in action, I guess.
Day o8 - A moment
Knee-deep snow. Stumbling through a field near Schulton Hill, you call my name and I don’t answer. It’s a moment of repulsion I will probably never forget, because lord knows where you are now.
Day o9 - Your beliefs
I believe in science. I believe that something other than science started all of this, though. I believe in a...
Day o7 - Best friend
In grade seven I was grouped with two strange girls on a band trip. I didn’t speak at all because they were tall and intimidating. Flash forward 3 years to grade 10 science class. We are seated in alphabetical order and who do I end up sitting behind but one of these very girls - a beautiful, big-eyed cultural chameleon. We made small talk about bugs in jars at the end of the first class,...
Day o4, o5, o6 - What you ate, definition of love,...
o4 - Today I ate one (1) slice of homemade pesto chicken and artichoke pizza, one (1) roast beef sandwich on an onion bun, and half of an iced capp made with chocolate milk (much too sweet).
o5 - Definition of love
I don’t believe in defining feelings, because everything is so relative. The bad thing about definitions is they either fool people into thinking they’re really in love...
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thumbswithhands:
if it wasn’t for Ron Voldemort never would have come back
that’s what you get for keeping pets you red headed british son of a bitch
I had this dream
You were finally getting out of the hospital. We were all there - your mother, your sister, your ex girlfriend, a choice few others. I was at once relieved, but worried that you wouldn’t be healthy for long, you’d been in the hospital for a year and a half, after all. I was worried you’d changed. We all were. We sensed your mood would be melancholy or maybe you would be quiet and...
Day o3 - Your Parents
My dad worked for my grandpa’s window and door company. I’m not sure what he did there, but he had an office and I think he was some sort of salesman, and I’m guessing he was damn good at it. My dad was the kind of guy who had no enemies. He loved his poker nights, rum, Jimmy Buffett and Gordon Lightfoot. He loved quoting movies - A Christmas Carol, Good Morning Vietnam and...
Day o2 - Your first love
So obviously it’s not the next day, but I can’t get to sleep. Anyway, I don’t think I’ve really had a crazy love or anything like that. As I said before, I haven’t ever dated anyone and that isn’t looking like it will change any time soon, but I guess if I wanted to talk about the person I’ve had the most intense feelings for, I would be lying if I said it...
Day o1 - Introduce yourself
This is difficult because I’m honestly still trying to get it straight, myself. I don’t know that I’m much different from anyone else. I’m 21 years old. I am directionless in a sense but I am registered in a BA Psychology program that I will resume in the fall. I’ve switched majors three times. I live in a fantastic city and the two feelings that most often result...
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I still hear trains at night, when the wind is...
Reminders
It’s always the last time. You’re too crazy, you’re too cold, you don’t understand the inner workings of human relationships. Four years later I’m still tripping over things you’ve said. I am remembering your hands, I am remembering when you pierced your ears with blue rhinestones and I am remembering your body closed like a folding chair in a 2 man tent....
January 2010
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Jan. 16, 2010
Completion of another long week. Precipitation has paused, my nails are too long and I have spent too much money. This week gave me a few opportunities to dust off my social skills and for that I am appreciative. I haven’t made a friend in so long that I’ve completely forgotten how to go about doing it.
Nice to see you again; strange that you live two minutes from my building and I...
“I left in love, in laughter, and in truth and wherever truth, love and laughter...”
– Bill Hicks
Casiotone for the Painfully Alone - Bobby Malone...
The sun came out today
The weather today is absolutely phenomenal. One of those days I’m really reminded of how awesome the west coast really is (though I hear it’s pretty darn nice out back home in the land of the lost, aka Moose Jaw, SK).
I got my internet account unblocked today, dropped that shitty English class and printed off 15 resumes which I swear I will really take out today/tomorrow. I...
If I said I got blocked from the school's wifi for...
I would be a filthy liar.
Oh, god. My life.
It has been raining for a million fucking years
It isn’t windy but my umbrella is on the verge of turning itself inside out. I’m really just getting in on this folding-umbrella technology now and it is getting a neutral thumb from me, I guess. Sideways-thumb. Its skeleton looks like a robotic spider and it’s not very strong but I suppose it is convenient how small it gets? I mean, it would be convenient if that were an issue...
7: Technical Difficulties
Funny how right after I start something I am forced into taking a break from it. It is probably better for me, not having the internet. Only temporarily, of course. I am filling my time with school, exercise, and Parks and Recreation. I had my first cellular biology class today and I am super excited to start everything else!
The soundtrack to my life right now is Sage Francis and A Tribe Called...
inafieldofpoppies:
My god. Lurking your tumblog today was like accidentally lurking myself. Keep being awesome!
Whoever wrote that… I love you.
That was me :). You’re not so bad yourself!
@bistinglia
Your words are marvelous and you string them together beautifully.
6: 2:45, thoughts on a best friend
This bed is too firm. A windowless room with orange walls, cinnamon, motivational posters. Syllables combine inside my head: wish you were here, miss you with every quark of my being, I hope you have been reincarnated; I hope your genes are pure, that perhaps you will know life without poison in your lungs. It wasn’t my intention to write about you today. It is the beginning of a bright new...
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5: at mount zoomer
Every time I listen to this album I am blown away by how insanely great it is, and then I don’t listen to it again for months. Why must I deny myself of this aural pleasure?
2010
It is finally the new year. I rung it in with people I love more than anything and now I sit on a secondhand pink recliner, congested in an overheated room, and I pause to reflect on the muddle of events that was 2009.
The year started on a crowded dancefloor at a wedding, surrounded by horny guests in formal attire. The only face not eaten was mine. Passed out in an oversized tan coat on the...
December 2009
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4: 4:44
Whoever decided to air a Golden Girls marathon at this time of day deserves to be congratulated.
On a related note, I was just so shocked to hear the word “slut” come out of Bea Arthur. These ladies… They’re feisty.
This is one of my favourite songs and I...
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superherojuice:
LOL.
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thumbswithhands:
The Dodos—Fools
yesyes
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3: Lists
It’s 2:34 AM (one of those magical times of day). In keeping with the idea of introducing myself to whatever anonymous internet traveller finds me, I figure it is list time. Pay no attention to order, I’m not much for commitment. I’ll just do the essential lists for now.
Ten favourite musical acts (since this is all that really matters)
The Low Anthem
Alberta Cross
Ola...
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“I don’t need from you a waterfall of careless praise
And I don’t need a trophy...”
– Northern Lights Bowerbirds (via youroldarchenemycatwoman)
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Two: affection
I’ve made a habit out of saying I have never been in love. True, thus far romantic relationships have eluded me, but why am I basing my history of love on that fact alone? The truth is that I fall in love all the time: with people, pieces of people, thoughts, words, places, colours and sounds. With everything. I continually find myself at a loss for words because, when it comes down to it,...
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One: embrace
This is my humble introduction to you, your eyes. I am composed of found objects and snippets of chain-restaurant conversation; I am glass and rain and fragments of other lives stitched together haphazardly. I think too much and give too little away. A music snob trying not to be a music snob. I take everything personally but I do not hold grudges. Emotions are piled on top of one another inside...
Who could heed the words of Charlie Darwin,
Fighting for a system built to fail?